Leaving On A Jetplane

Tonight is the most painful night for me.

Earlier this evening my dad called. Said that he had been called by the Bank Negara twice regarding the scholarship thing.

Yeah, the course which has forever been my dreams.

Biochemical Engineering.
A mixture of my Love and Hatred.

Do you know that human ears can turn red after hearing 30 minutes or above pressuring lecture? I dunno others, but my ears feels that way.

"There's no one who's fool enough to go to an interview and decline the offer when they succeed!"

Yeah, even now my ears still feel the heat. But no matter how much I tried to argue, the rationale still remain. Only a Fool will decline an offer so big, yet so hard to grab - from 50 individuals, only 5 were chosen. 4 gave their answer rapidly and now are in their induction course. 1 choose to ignore the offer.

Me.

Well, it's not that I'm such a crybaby, but there's something I need to do before I leave. And that something doesn't seem to be easily settled. At least not in the near future.

Ah, Fuck it. It's not that I couldn't live without it, aren't I?
Maybe I was trying too hard after all.

Well, writing all these reminds me of a song.
A song that my sister once gave me before she flew to Dallas, America.
A song by Chantal Kreviazuk.

Leaving On A Jet Plane

I'm ... I'm ...

All my bags are packed, I'm ready to go
I'm standin' here outside your door
I hate to wake you up to say goodbye

But the dawn is breakin', it's early morn
The taxi's waitin', he's blowin' his horn
Already I'm so lonesome I could die

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go

'Cause I'm leaving on a jet plane
I don't know when I'll be back again
Oh, babe, I hate to go

I'm ...

There's so many times I've let you down
So many times I've played around
I'll tell you now, they don't mean a thing

Every place I go, I think of you
Every song I sing, I sing for you
When I come back I'll wear your wedding ring

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go

'Cause I'm leaving on a jet plane
I don't know when I'll be back again
Oh, babe, I hate to go

Now the time has come to leave you
One more time, oh, let me kiss you
And close your eyes and I'll be on my way

Dream about the days to come
When I won't have to leave alone
About the times that I won't have to say ...

Oh, kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go

'Cause I'm leaving on a jet plane
I don't know when I'll be back again
Oh, babe, I hate to go

And I'm leaving on a jet plane
I don't know when I'll be back again
Oh, babe, I hate to go

But I'm leaving on a jet plane

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